I'm am trying to live a more honest life but it sucks

I used to do bad things to make a living I wasn't proud of myself yet there was never a dull moment I was always. Busy I got to enjoy the finer things in life since then I tried to straighten up go to school do volunteer work but I'm struggling financially I barely see my friends don't have gf anymore I feel almost depressed and unfulfilled my other sign is Scorpio it feels like prone to the darker side of life the more I fight and change the more unfulfilled I feel I don't know what's your advice how do I stay on the straight and narrow and be as happy as I once was?